we are SO hot! :o)

<333 Matty and I in Bar Harbor <333

I love this picture. Matt picked me up to get me to shut up cause i was bitching about the wind or something, haha and then we took this picccc- and its hot. sorry :o)

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mood: gloomy

<333 its been two years today, and i cant even beleive it. it seems like yesterday we were riding the school bus, and swimming in my pool. i remember so vividly how  he gave me full instructions on french-kissing , and we talked about it for days, and then gave me my first kiss. i remember him constantly whipping his dick out on the bus. and running down to the bus after school so we could get the backseat together. walks down our road. laughs. serious talks.  i remember in fourth grade, when he asked me out and gave me a peice of candy, and i was grossed out. i remember his million dollar smile, his ladies man attitude, all at such a young age.

and i remember the morning before my sixteenth birthday, getting the phone call. mark had died after stupid fuck cops had chased him while he was driving drunk. i remember my birthday party that same day, where we all sat there and bawled. i remember the funeral, the burial, everything.  i remember ALL of it like it happened ten seconds ago.

Mark was the most special person i have ever met. i will  NEVER forget him, or the times we shared growing up. He affected my life so much while he was living, and even more now that he is gone. i love you mark.

kerri, peej and i went to his grave today after school. i found it only suitable for kerri and i to do that together, because no one knew him like we did. we grew up nextdoor to eachother, with mark down the road. she is the only person i think truly understands the loss and pain that i feel, because i know that she feels the same way.  and it is raining today. just like it did on the day he died. and that ja rule song, 'rainy days' was popular, and i listened to it over and over.... <3 its just those rainy days, spend your lifetime tryin to wash away.. til the sun shines and I see your face... smile at me, smile at me....... <3

its so hard to realize that someone i grew up with, and experienced so much with, is gone. at the young age of 16, with so much life ahead of him, he was taken from us. it seems so wrong to look at the other gravestones around his, and see 80 and 90 year old people. he was SIXTEEN.

<333 Mark, I love you, and miss you unbeleivably. You will be with me always, because I know you look down on us from heaven, and smile that shit-eating grin, and laugh at all the stupid things I do. You should be graduating with us in 2 months. You should be at prom, you should have been at all the parties, all the crazy nights, you should be with us now. But you arent, so all I have is the memories you left me with. And I thank you for all the good times you gave me, I still smile and think of them daily. You were an amazing person, with a kind heart, and a welcoming smile. you were so easy to talk to, and fun to be around. I loved you then, I love you now, and I will always love you. You are with me FOREVER. <333

RIP Mark Douglas Reynolds Jr, January 5, 1986- April 13, 2002. <333

<3 the good die young, so they can get to heaven early
and watch over the rest of the slums -watch over us please-
move the clouds so we could see the rest of the sun
you might've died, but you in heaven that's a blessing in one. -stylesP <3